Open the door to within

Last Sunday we baptized our little Josie in church and the sermon talked about coming home. But this wasn't the concept of having to go outside yourself to find home, she spoke about turning in and coming home to yourself. Wow! After my losses and now another full term pregnancy, my body has been through so much and at times I feel heavy, weak and run down. So I am embracing this idea of coming home to me. It feels kind, nurturing and fun. It feels mindful to tap into me and constantly checking in with myself to see where I am moment to moment. How am I feeling? What are my emotions? Is this stress? Take a deep breath. I am finding that still and peaceful home inside. Yes!

Good Grief Workshop

My dear friend Catherine and I have been called to help anyone who has faced a pregnancy or infant loss. What grew out of that was Good Grief - a workshop for those struggling to cope. We offer an afternoon of rest, restoration and connection with others. Our next event is coming up November 11, 2017 and you can register here on my site under "Workshops." 

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Capture Your Grief - What Heals You

A picture I took of all my journals for the Capture Your Grief project.

A picture I took of all my journals for the Capture Your Grief project.

I was lucky enough to attend a Return To Zero retreat in 2015 on Whidbey Island, WA. It was there I met Carly Marie who shared her beautiful poetry, music and stories with us. Carly Marie is a very talented artist who has created a beautiful world of support for all parents who have faced the loss of pregnancy or an infant. You can check out more on her site here: 

Every October, Carly hosts an online event called "Capture Your Grief." It's a mindful healing project where for 31 days you engage in acts and share a photo, artwork, video or written word that captures your own journey. It's a wonderful way to connect with yourself in a beautiful way and stay open to the journey you are on as someone grieving. Since it's an online project, it's also a natural way to connect with others going through similar journeys. In 2016 I decided to do it and share widely on Facebook for all to see. I am NOT the type of person to share that much over such a public platform, but I did it and it felt good. Others got to see my process for 31 days and I myself got to mindfully focus each day on something beautiful. 

If you feel called to join in, here is the link to the 2017 project:

October 2017

It's October and it is SIDS, pregnancy loss, and infant loss awareness month. It always catches me by surprise when it rolls around. What am I supposed to do? Am I supposed to advocate and speak up and share? I never know quite what to do. I guess the way I see it is, I spend the entire year in conversations with others talking about my journey, so I am making others aware year round. It's so important for people to understand what real life looks like. That pregnancy and babies can be a dark subject for many. With being as honest as I am, I come across women who open up and share their experience because I did the same. By sharing, we are removing a bit of the pain and validating to the world that sometimes SHIT HAPPENS! We should never succumb to a society that says your grief has no place here. That is BS. My world has and had grief in it and I will always carry that with me. More often, I will share the transformation I experienced as a result of the grief. It's maybe my superpower now and by sharing it, I am allowing others to do the same. THAT is healing. 

Circle of Healing October 20th, 2016

Catherine and I met at a healing retreat on Whidbey Island September of 2015. The retreat was for those women who needed it after the loss of a pregnancy, a baby at birth or an infant death. We spent a sacred 4 days together bonding with the other women and finding a tribe who made us feel at home with our grieving thoughts. Catherine came and did yoga with us ladies and provided us with a bright beautiful energy. Since then, Catherine and I have been trying to find a way to continue the grief work and share it with others. We have had conversations about being called to do this work together, and we are both feeling a need to use our gifts to help others. If you or anyone you know has faced a pregnancy or infant loss, we are having our first Circle of Healing event October 20th, 2016. Sending you much love and light wherever you are on life's journey.